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My name is plainer than jane.
I am 19 years old.
I'm from everywhere.
I love
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dogs
jasmin tea
piercings
tattos
books
candles
art
latte
♥him...blake:)


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    Friday, December 29, 2006
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    i feel like my head is too full.
    sometimes, it hurts to think.
    if i'm not careful,
    i sink into my thoughts and panic.

    my mom said when i was small,
    they used to leave me behind with my nanny when they take my sister out.
    maybe that's why i'm okay to be alone most of the time.
    what happens when you're an infant shapes you.
    and for me, i became a loner.
    i feel better when i'm in a room alone,
    lying on my bed under my blanket
    and i would just stay that way.
    forever if i could.

    a few nights ago, i felt so anxious.
    i couldn't rest, i couldnt' sleep.
    i felt like going crazy.
    so i let my puppie sleep on my bed and i felt better.
    safer. calmer.

    but the next night, i went weird.
    suddenly i hated the world.
    everyone piss me off.
    i wanted to hurt
    something
    someone
    me.
    no scares were left, but the pain stayed.
    jake talked me through it.

    he listens.
    and i listen to him.

    i am scared.

    plainer than jane [ 2:14 pm ]