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My name is plainer than jane.
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    Thursday, February 15, 2007
    grandma argh

    even though i can stand her more now after that 2 month vacation in taiwan, i still dont' agree with the things that she does to my aunt yin fei. she is so annoying.

    i get along well with aunt yin fei because she thinks we're alike and i dont' really judge her and she can tell me anything and i wont' tell anyone else besides my mom. i only tell my mom becuase i know she wont' do anything rash and she'll put things into perspective for me and stop me from being rash.

    the reason for this entry is beucase today, during lunch, grandma was trying to get the dirt about aunt yin fei from me. she was like, "what do you think aobut your aunt yin fei?" i didn't reply and she added "she doesn't really talk much." and i said, "hmm, not really, we talk quite a lot." and then "she's quite caring about me actually, cause when i was having cramp, she made me ginger tea." she didnt' ask anything else.

    the reason i'm on aunt's side is because no one else is. and i dont' think she did anything wrong. besides, she's really nice to me. i think it's just a whole bunch of misunderstanding and no one is motivated enough to sort things out. they are so set on how they think about her (selfish, money-minded, proud, mean) and she is a bit too defensive and she remembers. she remembers what other people did to her and said to her and she feels like she's the victim and she's stuck here. so she has to be very defensive.

    oh how i wish she can be happier. but i can't really say anything becuase she's my senior. but i really hope everyone give everyone else a chance, you know? start all over and sort things out and then they'll all be happy and understanding and what not. the problem with this kind of big family is that it's hard to fit in becuase it doens't matter who you are, it's what they think matters. which makes me wonder, grandma is sort of like an outsider too, when she got married in. didnt' she feel the same? or did she?

    mommy said that it's good that aunt can talk to me about this. and that i'm a very good listener. but sometimes... i'm so tired from listening. that's why i tell mom, cause my head cannot take it all. the funny thing is, a lot of people tend to tell me things they dont' normally tell other people. they just pour their heart out to me. i dont' mind. i think it's good for other people to talk and pour out the things that's stuck inside them. but for me, i need to empty it. sometimes, i find a close friend i trust and tell her about it, knowing she wont' tell other people. sometimes, i tell mom. cause it's just too many secrets from too many people.

    plainer than jane [ 12:15 pm ]